So it’s no surprise that I’ve been a little quiet the last couple weeks. We had the big release with “Unraveled”/AHW10, and then I went quiet on social media and blogs. Well, I’m here to say that rumors of my demise have been greatly exaggerated…
Wait, no such rumors? Really? …dang.
I’m currently in the middle of edits for “Breathe Into Me” and the Avon anthology story, both of which are due very soon. We’ve hit that wonderful snag during edits where things kind of go belly-up, I realize I’m a terrible writer, and just want to stick my head in the sand. Or, in this case, that consists of me pulling out my trusty violin and trying to saw some tunes.
Of course, then strings break, pegs break, I have to take a trip to the luthier (violin doctor) to get things repaired, etc. Yup, first world problems, right? Around winter time, when I’m cooped up inside more often, I tend to get a tiny bit stir crazy – already, I can feel it happening.
On a more serious note, my grandmother was rushed to the hospital a couple nights ago. I found out about it yesterday when my mother texted they were coming down early to take care of my grandparents. Despite all the tests, they don’t know yet what’s wrong with her; high blood pressure (over 200), numbness in her arm, fatigue and, well, age. She’s tough, I know this, but in the last few years she’s grown much more frail than I ever remembered.
So yeah. I have a few things weighing on me, but I wanted to apologize for being so darned quiet. Several of you have reached out via Facebook and Twitter, asking if things are alright. You deserve to be answered individually because, seriously, I adore you guys, but it’s hard for me to focus right now. My brain feels scattered in a million different directions, and once again I’m making no progress forward. :/
It’s depressing and a bit disappointing, but you know what? I’m still so thankful that I can do something I love. Even during weeks like this, when I feel like a failure, I’m so incredibly thankful that I’m able to make a living with this writing stuff. It’s not always smooth sailing (*take a deep breath Sara*) but, man, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Ooh, awesome: just got a text from my father saying my grandmother will be released tonight. Still no word on what if anything happened, but she’s out of the hospital!! Another thing to be thankful for this holiday season!!!